He did a good kick-off  last week:

jalanjalan naik taksi

mandimandi di sungai

makanmakan di kentucky

–you master bahasa ibu, son!  let’s check your early version in bahasa three years ago:

Di kebun binatang

aku melihat beruang

beruang melihat aku

aku tidak takut

beruang mungkin takut

*Ueno Zoo, Tokyo 2005

hmmmm… you played with the limited  vocabularies

This weekend you threw another piece:

AUTUMN

Dear autumn,

brush your teeth and shower

welcoming your sister:

winter!

SNOW

I love snow,

go, slow, blow, glow, go

So, my dear son..good luck with your “lomba bulan bahasa” today. Enjoy the competition. No matter the result would be, you are the winner in my heart.

Love,

Mum.

What I have read today? William Wordsworth, a collection of his early works. Why? I happened to listen to a brief review of his collections where he was acknowledged as “a frontier of romanticism, a counter of neo-classic, a gift for ordinary people who fall in love with poetic drawings of daily and trivial things: humble, simple, and subtle. The nature, the people…hmmm.. it’s amazed me, how his words successfully traveled hundred years from the age he lived, and arriving here adding the beauty of my “so-so life”.

Wordsworth’s crafts remind me of simple rhymes of the son, fawwaz, and the longing-words of the husband, farid. Wordsworth wrote long lines, he inserted conversations in several poems, but he skilfully maintained the simplicity.
Farid and fawwaz crafts are what we called as “sajak-sajar rumahan”, poetic words that we wrote one to each other for many reasons: for our happiness, sadness, loneliness or whenever we are thinking of one to each other.

They both write poems (why I do not have such talent, darned me!). They both craft their feeling, the nature and small things around, and that is why I’d love to read more poems, lately.

So, for one fine Sunday morning, with a glass of tomato juice and poems of Wordsworth, the husband and the son, I can not ask for more (well, new requests might be rise as sun goes high, but now.. I am seriously thinking how beautiful and healthy my morning is while skimming the horrifying news of the war in South Ossetia, Georgia…–oh dear The World Rulers, no more war, please!)

Here are some favorite quotes of Wordsworth on poetry:

“Poetry is the spontaneous overflow of powerful feelings: it takes its origin from emotion recollected in tranquility.”

“She seemed a thing that could not feel the touch of earthly years.”

“Small service is true service, while it lasts.”

Ly

How is the camping? Have you successfully climbed Mount Fuji, today? Have you managed to cook your own meals? Have you managed to fold your sleeping bag neatly? Have you put the mosquito repellent onto your skin before deciding to stay outdoor all night long?

Look up! The night sky above you is me and the countless stars are my countless questions. The anxious summer is me, the never ending songs of cicadas on trees and grass are, again, my questions: all about you staying out for 5 days, far away from me.

“I am a big boy, don`t you worry, Mother!” you told me.

But how could I ease my anxieties? You are the youngest participant in the International Youth Camp to Mount Fuji, this year!

In Hiroshima Peace Memorial Park, I was sitting alone and bringing out your question: “Why did the US decide to bomb Hiroshima?”

A question you raised when we were studying about The World History two months ago. “What would happen if the US did not drop the bombs? What do you think would happen, Mommy?”

The museum has closed. Unfortunately. I arrived in the park when it was completely dark. Gardeners were there, however, trimming the bush and grasses, watering the gardens, I counted the paper cranes, –the symbol of peace and hope, I put my Anti-Nuclear Weapons badge (I wish you were here and hit the street with me, honey!), and amid all things I have been doing in the city, I am thinking of you, thinking of how excited are you sleeping under the countless stars.

Tomorrow morning, I will visit the museum. 8.15.

I will continue this letter tomorrow. Don`t worry. I have kept your questions in my bag, I have got the Museum Info and all things you want to know about Atomic Bomb in Hiroshima. Me, your forgetful mother, have been quite well organized, lately…

Hiroshima, August 1 2008/ 23:39 pm

The second child were about to be born. Girl or boy? The question was not so important. At home, an eleven months baby was crying. He was too young to know that the mother had left him to deliver another baby. The second baby was unexpected, I guess. With 11 months interval from the first baby, I suspected that the second one was merely an unplanned birth (or shall I call it a sweet surprise for the young couple?).

The day before, the mother was rejected. The nurse told her, “Come back tomorrow, it`s too early for you…” For those who understands the terminology of child-birth process, the word “early” is clear enough, isn’t it? “Too early” meaning that there will be hours before the baby was ready to push the womb and say hello to the World. “Too early” also refers to your weakness as a mother, who can`t handle the pain, the strike –regular or irregular– against your hips, your back and the whole body. It is an emotional and stressful moment. “Go home… handle yourself with care, come back here, when the strike is intensifying…in every 30 or 15 minutes…”

The hospital was called Rumah Bersalin Bahagia in Kampong Dadi, Makassar. It was closed several years later. It run out of business. I was in the second grade of elementary school when I found that it did not exist any longer. In Kampong Dadi there was a hospital for patients with mental disorders. People in Makassar referred to a cynical joke, “You better go to Kampong Dadi” for those who appear to act like crazy people or showing mental disorder symptoms. Once I had tried to search the hospital. No trace. When my life and things surrounding go weird, I sometimes remember the hospital and jumped into a clumsy conclusion: being born near a mental disorders hospital had opened a possibility for me to inherit what so called “crazy or madness symptoms” in a very early stage of life. (my bad habit number 1: justifying things irrationally)

The mother was spending the rest of her day in unimaginable pain. Waiting for tomorrow, counting the beat of dreadful contraction inside her belly. She was dying, so was the baby. She went home carried a terrible news: the baby was tightly tied with her own plancenta. The mother cried with pain for every move the baby did.

On the next morning, the day was fine, it was July 16, the dry season was climbing its peak. The mother was finally admitted in a decent room. She insisted that the best doctor in the hospital should be by her side, helping her to delivery the dying baby. Boy or girl? The question was replaced with: bad or good news: being born alive or dead?

The baby was born. The mother vividly listened the Jumat preach from a mosque nearby while she had the labor. “I forgot what the preacher said, but it must be all about good deeds…”

The Friday was fine. The Jumat preach was about to finish. The mother, with her simplicity in mind, as simple as her life itself, delivered a little creature with a complex mind and life: me.

The mother described the new born baby as: a dark-blue little creature, moving her hands and feet weakly, no first cry. Everyone in the delivery room, the mother, the doctor, the nurses — they all thought the baby was dying (or dead?). “They pushed your little breast, they shook your tender body… I cried for all possible reasons, having you or losing you…”

She gave her blue-dying newborn baby the most precious gift ever: to become a full time mother. The mother resigned from her job as a teacher in a local elementary school, a fifteen minutes walk from her house. “I have to raise you well, with all my best..” she recalled her promise. The gift that would not be properly paid back for years to come, in all of my life.

Years later, I tried to confirm my assumption about the unplanned birth. The mother poured her tears to answer me, “For every bless of life, why should I regret you? Planned or unplanned, why should you bother?”

(My bad habit number 2: planting so many weird assumptions and seeking confirmation at the wrong time, in the wrong place and sometimes with the wrong persons)

Today, after receiving a birthday call from the mother, I recalled my birth. I spent my morning to look back at the path that I have taken, the stages –unplanned or planned ones–: the dark-blue new-born baby, the dying small creature, a complex soul and mind, a woman, a wife, a mother with an endless journey…

The daughter of Friday, that was my nickname. That`s how the mother and orang-orang rumah called me. They believe that Friday is the day of stubborn people. (Why? Once I asked. That`s the belief, they said).

“You did not cry when you were born, but we had difficulties to stop your anger and tears whenever you were disappointed or if someone let you down… You know what, you had unstoppable tears ever!”

It was Friday. One fine Friday. The day when I was born. The daughter of Friday. Me.(*)